Memory Book

I spent time with an Angel, just passing through. I can still conger her up . Her beauty, her hair , green eyes, the sweetness. Her hands , so soft and always clean. I am thankful for the pictures and photographs. I keep some cards , and photos on my dresser I light a candle every night for some 19 years now .

With winter coming on, my thoughts of my daughter are always, always with me. She was in all the beautiful 🍁 leaves blowing over on the Feather River. And when the season’s change I remember her here with us . I drove on past 25 Tomahawk Trail in Graeagle today . It was the best Christmas ever she said to us as we sat by the fire. Today I thought it was the best of time’s then the worst of time’s. How my heart aches for new memories.❤️ She is always with us. Someday the circle will be unbroken 🙏

Another day of talking to you in my head. I wish I could call you. It’s beautiful June weather here by the river. You would love disc golf. Can you believe it, I am 70 . Most importantly I have 10 years sober❤️God has given me the grace to stay sober 🙏 I love and miss you so much! 😢

Her absence goes. The hair shirt is heavy. I still feel, when something amazing and wonderful happens, I will tell Jamie. I wonder how many children her and Wayne would of had here on earth. I wonder what they are doing in heaven today? We have not been to cemetery in years. We do have a memorial in the backyard. You my precious daughter are in the arms of the Angels 😇

Merry Christmas to all of Jamie’s family & friends.

somewhere over the rainbow, blue birds fly, birds fly over the rainbow, why then oh why can't I?

I’m a few days late, but I’m sitting at your gravesite now, & someone put lovely pinwheels with Gerber daisies at the site, which was brilliant. It’s always so peaceful here. I hope that lots of critters still come to visit you here. I also hope that Curtis, Dori, David, & all your friends are hanging in there during this crazy time in the world. Your laugh always brought us comfort. Belated happy birthday.

I dreamed Jamie this early morning. Such a gift. My heart is thanking her for the gift. I miss David and Jamie all the time. They both have big loving hearts and enjoy helping people. Kindness. That is David and Jamie. I have always told my children and husband about my first flowers of spring. I planted 75 tulip bulbs, purple and pink and yellow. I use to buy Jamie so many things in Purple. Then when she lived in Redondo Beach she decorated her home in green I said to her, I thought purple was you favorite color. She gave me that smile, and said mom purple is your favorite. one year on Mothers Day she took me to have my colors done, for make-up.... she bought me the most beautiful green eyeshadow. Her and I loved looking at make-up and nail polish colors. One more memory , Wayne had a nickname for Jamie, it was Jade.

There is a heart at the center of the world. there is a stream that flows from it. there is a bird that flies over the valley. then there is you a gerber daisy guarding it all with love. how i remember.